Trying something...

New camera, which I love.  I want to see how much I can learn this month.  I found a 30 day photography challenge on Pinterest.  I want to see how many I can keep up with.

Day 1: Self-portrait.

Dreams coming true.

Well, I said that 2011 would be a year to make dreams come true.   And well, it was.  August 17th, we found out we were pregnant. Due April 25th.  And a week and a half early, on April 15, 2012, Abigail Ryanne was  born.


I still can't believe that she is here.  We are learning so much from her.  And every sleep deprived moment is completely worth it.  And she was completely worth the wait.


I look forward to every day with her and watching her grow.


So far it's the little things like her hair growing longer, real smiles instead of gassy ones and gaining strength to hold her head up on her own.


She is a miracle.  Our miracle.

Full Circles

coming around again.  another full circle.  Another end of a year.  I have been waking up to strange and amazing dreams lately.  They are almost like messages from a future self saying, 'Now is the time!'

It's time to do the work and acheieve my goals and make my dreams come true.

I feel like I've come full circle on who I currently am.  It's time to start anew and bring something great to the table. Someone who's more vibrant and alive.  I am ready.  I can do this.  I can live.

Time for a new life and a new year.  2011.

party

#Reverb10 December 9 prompt:

Prompt: Party. What social gathering rocked your socks off in 2010? Describe the people, music, food, drink, clothes, shenanigans.


I'm not much of a partier, but I do enjoy social gatherings when we do go out.  I think the best one this past year was surprising a work friend in the city.  We hadn't planned on going, but we turned up and surprised him anyway.  From there the shenanigans commenced.  From bar hopping to dancing to karaoke, it really was an amazing night.


Then there is always visits from my husband's best friend.  Whenever he is in town, we can be sure that a good time is always to be had.  Not to mention all the nights we went out when we were on vacation.  I loved just hanging out in the Granary or the Waterline in Leith with good company and good conversation.  It makes me miss Scotland even more to think of it now.

#reverb10 - doubling up.

December 6 – Make.

What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it?

I make a lot of things.  Physically, it's usually a knitting project.  I think the last thing I finished was a christmas gift for my sister, and I'm currently working on one for my Mom. hopefully I'll finish before Christmas.

But there are tons of projects that I would love to start.  I just haven't found the time.  I would love to get back into art journaling and collage.  I've been thinking about it often.  Maybe in the new year, I can clear a space and some time for it.

Daily Prompt: December 5 – Let Go.

What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

I feel that I let go of a huge part of me that was consumed daily by jealousy.  A part of me that was utterly convinced that I was not good enough. But something clicked inside me early this year that said "let it go, you don't have a need for that anymore.  It's time to move on."

And so I did.  And I am worth it.

Growing up

When I turned 35, I was scared. I felt like my life was slipping away.  And sometimes I still do, but I think I've really come a long way this year in the "growing up" department.

I feel stronger and more capable.  I feel less burdened by little things like jealousy.  And I'm learning that I can control my emotions, my body and my life.

I'm also learning that I can't be everything to everyone.  I can't fix other people's problems.  I can only do so much.

I'm learning that it is ok to be selfish sometimes.  Because Me & Us time is VERY important.

Found

Something has transformed in me.  Something great.  Something beautiful and something bright.  The darkness has finally cleared away from my eyes and now I see clearer.  I see me.  I SEE ME.  I feel differently about myself.  I feel happier.  I'm still on a journey, and I always will be, but I've shed the cloak of sap and sorrow that I kept for so long.

It's finally time for me to shine.  It's finally time for me to be comfortable with me.  It's finally time for me to LIVE.

I started taking dance fitness classes about a month ago.  And they have really been great.  But there is one class that recharges me and fills my soul with peace.  It's called IntenSATI.  The instructor takes us through a series of movements and we repeat a set of affirmations after her as we are moving (and sweating!).

Everyday.
In a very true way.
I co-create my reality.

As above, so is below.
This is what I know.

This month our focus is "Success".  We focus on succeeding in  our lives, in our tasks, in our dreams.  My focus right now has been on my health and family.  So I spend a lot of my brain power focusing on these things.

I feel proud of myself for making the steps that I have.  I feel proud of my accomplishments.  And I look forward to the possibilities of my future.

Namaste.