rough days

They will happen.  Today was one of them.  And unfortunately when I have a stressful day, it makes my day twice as long and twice as hard.  I'm unable to focus and concentrate on my work.  I felt myself sinking deeper and deeper.  My chest felt tight.  I wanted to run away from my responsibilities.

But tonight I come home and i'm far away from all of that.  With someone who loves me completely and supports me.

And at the end of the end I have to remember to turn the bad days around, look back and see that I can do things differently.  Pick myself up, find new ways to make things easier, make it a challenge.  make it an adventure.  Turn it all around.  For the better.

adventure: let life scoop you up and bring you somewhere

I didn't get a chance to go on any adventures this week due to work life getting in the way.  But I will say that I did adventure with a couple of books that I am reading an listening to.

I am reading Tales of a Female Nomad by Rita Golden Gelman.  Where she adventures in Central America, Galapagos, Bali, Indonesia (so far)  I had wanted to read this book for a few years and it was finally the right time.

The other book is The Outlander by Diana Gabaldon.  I have been listening to this one at work (and everywhere else that I can wear my headphones).  I wanted to read this book over 10 years ago, but could never really get started on it.  I'm absolutely sucked in now and found that listening to the story is great for a rainy weekend.  Yesterday I spent hours listening and knitting.  It was my dream day.   So very relaxing!

And if it ever stops raining today I might adventure out, other wise I"ll just continue on my reading adventures.

focus

Right now I am wishing for some focus.  I would like to focus on the good, on the things that matter.  Focus on the gifts I have been given, and on the good things to come.

In the past week I have been reminded that every day is precious.  And how we choose to live each day is important.  I have spend so many days, weeks, months, years, choosing to waste them being unhappy, unsatisfied, jealous, upset or depressed.  Granted, I don't expect to never have another bad day or to never be sad again,  but I can choose guide my path where I want it to go, and  stop letting it take me no where.

I need focus in my life.  I need change.  I need to see my dreams coming true.  I need to do the work.

internal shifts: creating dreams come true from the inside out

this is my health - pure, healthy, strong, freeing, easy

• detox
• consume less sugar
• eat healthier
• exercise atleast 4 days a week
• do my exercise dvds
• ride the bike
• go for more walks

these are my relationships - deep, strong, warm, bold, constant

• pay more attention
• call friends and loved ones more often
• make plans with family more often
• make time for the two of us

this is my abundance - freeing, relief, grateful

• donate old clothes and items
• recycle

this is my creativity/purpose - happiness, soulful, me

• writing
• journaling
• knitting
• art journals

this is how I practice self love/care - quiet, happy, me

• quiet time for myself
• writing
• being inspired

this is how I experience happiness/adventure - brave, bold, excited

• random day trips
• exploring new places
• being with friends
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