Full Circles

coming around again.  another full circle.  Another end of a year.  I have been waking up to strange and amazing dreams lately.  They are almost like messages from a future self saying, 'Now is the time!'

It's time to do the work and acheieve my goals and make my dreams come true.

I feel like I've come full circle on who I currently am.  It's time to start anew and bring something great to the table. Someone who's more vibrant and alive.  I am ready.  I can do this.  I can live.

Time for a new life and a new year.  2011.

party

#Reverb10 December 9 prompt:

Prompt: Party. What social gathering rocked your socks off in 2010? Describe the people, music, food, drink, clothes, shenanigans.


I'm not much of a partier, but I do enjoy social gatherings when we do go out.  I think the best one this past year was surprising a work friend in the city.  We hadn't planned on going, but we turned up and surprised him anyway.  From there the shenanigans commenced.  From bar hopping to dancing to karaoke, it really was an amazing night.


Then there is always visits from my husband's best friend.  Whenever he is in town, we can be sure that a good time is always to be had.  Not to mention all the nights we went out when we were on vacation.  I loved just hanging out in the Granary or the Waterline in Leith with good company and good conversation.  It makes me miss Scotland even more to think of it now.

#reverb10 - doubling up.

December 6 – Make.

What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it?

I make a lot of things.  Physically, it's usually a knitting project.  I think the last thing I finished was a christmas gift for my sister, and I'm currently working on one for my Mom. hopefully I'll finish before Christmas.

But there are tons of projects that I would love to start.  I just haven't found the time.  I would love to get back into art journaling and collage.  I've been thinking about it often.  Maybe in the new year, I can clear a space and some time for it.

Daily Prompt: December 5 – Let Go.

What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

I feel that I let go of a huge part of me that was consumed daily by jealousy.  A part of me that was utterly convinced that I was not good enough. But something clicked inside me early this year that said "let it go, you don't have a need for that anymore.  It's time to move on."

And so I did.  And I am worth it.

Growing up

When I turned 35, I was scared. I felt like my life was slipping away.  And sometimes I still do, but I think I've really come a long way this year in the "growing up" department.

I feel stronger and more capable.  I feel less burdened by little things like jealousy.  And I'm learning that I can control my emotions, my body and my life.

I'm also learning that I can't be everything to everyone.  I can't fix other people's problems.  I can only do so much.

I'm learning that it is ok to be selfish sometimes.  Because Me & Us time is VERY important.