Sometimes I feel like I've got it. I know what I need to do and I can do it. And a moment later, it can all fall apart. I can have a dream or a goal and rather than making it happen I will sit and wish and hope and dream and watch as the dream slowly goes away. I know, it isn't going to happen magically by itself. But nothing seems to motivate me. Nothing. And I feel lost and overwhelmed with everything I want and hope and dream for.
so many dreams... I want so much. Maybe I want too much. And everything feels just out of reach.
March was stressful and threw me for a loop. I thought April would be better and it has been, but not creatively or productively towards dreams. April has been detrimental because it's my birth month. And while usually I look forward to it, this was the first year I did not. Instead I'm just feeling old and run down and feel like my life if going no where.
I know this is just a rutt, and it won't last. But is sure is sticking around and bringing me down.
